Its Just going to Be Okay.

At times I find myself and others feeling so lost and not knowing whats going to happen next. I can talk until Im blue in the face about what you should do but its a lot easier said than done. I have seen my friends hurt and for such silly things and it can be talked through but I know in my heart there is that little piece of me that knows theyre not fully okay. Throughout the years I feel I have been tested, pushed, shoved, and challenged. I asked myself how the HELL am I going to get through this, and when is all this pain going to be gone? Then It finally hit me… I just thought to myself ” No matter what happens at the end of the day its going to be OKAY. No not perfect, no not amazing, and no not a completely happy ending. But itll be okay. Ive seen so much happen around here good and bad with people and it just makes me wonder what theyre thinking in their head about getting through something. Should I intrude and give them a little dabble of my words i live by or just let them sulk and wallow in thier own problems? Then I see other people rise above and hold their head high confronting their confidence and rising above the lows that are pulling them down. And you know what? Thank god. I love to see others can take it all and probably say the same thing as I. Its just going to be ok. No matter what. And you know what thats all I would ever ask for is just for everything to be ok. I dont want a million dollars, I dont want a house up in a hill overlooking the whole city, and I certainly dont want some fairy tale life. Sure it sounds great on the outside but it just seems boring to me. More than ok just seems like there is absolutely no risks involved. I want to question everything, and figure things out, I want at the end of the day to know wow that was challenging and i figured it out. I want to know that things dont have to be okay for me to be ok. I sat out in the rain tonight and like stepped outside myself for a sec. And I realized all the things that I stress and worry so much about during the day REALLY DONT MATTER. I mean sure somethings must and will be worried about but the other stuff, the materialistic things, they just dont matter. YOU CANT TAKE THEM WITH YOU. You know what you have when you go? You have your family your Heart and your memories that hopefully plenty of people who love you can also take with them. It doesnt matter what you wore or who you were dating , or where you were at this or that time. Striving to have the best of the best is something that just shouldnt be a part of the equation , not for me at least. I want to have fun I want to live and enjoy being me. I want to enjoy the small simplicity of the small things. I want to be able to just run and not look back watching just whats following me. I want to look into that closed door and not fear when faced with danger. I just want to have fun. thats not always a bad thing either. I just dont want to take everything so god damn seriously. Its just not worth it to me. Because Wanna know why?



ITS JUST GOING TO BE OKAY.



start beliving in yourself and in those words and I swear to you all will fall into place. Not today, not tomorrow, but soon enough. When your time is right