Feeling Alive

Do you ever feel like your just floating by in your life? Seeing things you want to touch or see but for some reason you just keep floating by? I just know that I feel alive all of a sudden. I seem like I always am I know but its a different feeling. A feeling of security, beauty, and solitude. I feel clean. Ridding negativity from my life I believe brought me to this place. I want to touch base with something very dear to me. Being married to a soldier. I know being a soldier is the toughest job out there but I believe there is one that is close to that. Being married to one. I feel like I finally figured it all out though. And I want to share with those who are married to one themselves as it seems more and more of my friends are being sent away with their men and sometimes dont come back mentally. Staying busy is the one thing I honestly believe has kept me going throughout the grueling hours the boys have to endure during the week and sometimes weekend. Go to school. The army pays for 6,000 dollars of your tuition so why not let it just sit there. Take advantage of it and get yourself an education. Be worth something. Research resources to give you other fun things to do around post. This sounds so corny but go to a sewing or cooking class. Take up Yoga or if your feeling exotic take a pole dancing class itll make you feel so confident . Just have some fun during this experience and instead of being sad because your away from family and friends, look around and think of how lucky you are to see these new surroundings that others may never have the chance to see. Breathe in a new state. And a new state of mind. And deployments.. O deployments.. Work work work. maybe even 2 jobs. Just stay busy and dont let your opportunities pass you by because you feel like maybe tomorrow you could move somewhere else. Take each chance you can to make yourself what YOU WANT TO. Write letters, send packages, choose who you surround yourself with. All that will make a difference I promise. But most of all just remember to stay healthy happy and sane. I have learned so much lately. I know I know I say that all the time right? Well I must say to this day I am learning more and more about myself, and my relationships with the peole I love. I am learning to be a better friend, a better wife, and just an all around better ME. I am learning to be less sensitive, less uptight, but more happy. I must say that Although things are going to be a lot different this year with Brock leaving so soon, I am going to focus on the positive and stay happy and stay Brittanee.

“Love knows no limit to its endurance, no end to its trust, no fading of its hope; it can outlast anything. Love still stands when all else has fallen.”

Each time we face our fear, we gain strength, courage, and confidence in the doing.”

Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.”

So take this and live learn and GROW.