Typing this makes me sad to say that I have completely SLACKED on my blog. Something that brings such joy to my life I have postponed, put off, and pretty much just dropped completely. I have some pretty good excuses though. My new laptop my honey bought me for Christmas has windows 8 which has a bad connection problem with the internet. I have waited two months for it to work and through research I have found that they released this version way too early. I still have a little update to do on it but its working now so lets cross our fingers that it stays that way. And Yes I have my IPAD but it has been adopted by my 5 year old nephew. ( Who totally has the highest score on temple run just to add ;)) So there are my excuses. I want to start out with some changes to my life I would LOVE to share. I quit my job at Larry Miller Toyota because they were practicing a few things I didn't not feel morally were for me and my beliefs. I am now at a new Toyota store and am loving it. I have found it is rather challenging but It has pushed me. And for those who know me, Pushing is healthy for my idle mind. I also want to bring up one more kind of taboo topic. WEIGHT. I am a thicker girl I weigh between 145-150 depending on when I weigh myself during the day. AND I LOVE EVERY OUNCE OF MYSELF. I was pretty heavy when I was married but it was due to my absolutely horrible relationship I definitely stress ate. I want to live a healthy lifestyle. I rarely eat fast food anymore and I have completely cut soda out of my life. The reason why I am bringing up my weight is because my ex husband recently took to his facebook to call me names and most of them were pointing at my weight. Its funny because I think for a slight moment I was hurt but I think I was more taken aback that after 2 years of being separated and done he still feels he has to put me down . So immediately after that brief and I mean brief moment I rose above and prayed for him. I know he has a lot of issues and if it makes him feel better I will just wish him courage and guidance to get through whatever he is going through. I am also greatful he said those words about me because of 2 reasons... He once again showed his true colors to the public and it made me appreciate my boyfriend that much more. I am with a man who loves me NO MATTER WHAT. He is the most supportive appreciative caring and nurturing person I have ever met. I have a lot of people who tell me that I am super gushy with him but the only reason I might be a bit much is because when you have had (excuse my language ) shit for a relationship for so long it just makes you love someone who is completely ok with you being yourself that much more meaningful. Many of you may be wondering why I am putting all of this out there and its simply for this reason. DO NOT LET WHAT SOMEONE SAYS OR THINKS ABOUT YOU TAKE AWAY WHAT YOU THINK OF YOURSELF. If at the end of the day you love who you are and what you are doing with yourself and what you stand for then love yourself for just that. DO NOT LET ANYONE EVER DETERMINE YOUR DAYS YOUR NIGHTS OR YOUR THOUGHTS. I am so greatful that with becoming older I have gained the knowledge and wisdom to know the difference between reality and what is perceived. I want you all to know that sometimes things will get tough and not everyone will accept your lifestyle, or how you do things, or how you go through your day but in the end who cares. I have taken all of these challenges and just laughed it off and actually end up loving myself a whole lot more. So for anyone who has ever said anything negative about me thank you because I have learned to rise above and love myself that much more. I really am going to try to blog more as long as my laptop keeps working but I just had to spew out all of this tonight. I will leave you with this. At the end of the day only YOU can control how YOU handle things. Good Bad and Ugly you are in control of how you use these challenges and what the outcome can be. YOU are merely beautiful no matter what ANYONE else thinks. If you believe this, The ones worth keeping around will see and be inspired to think this about THEMSELVES. And for those who don't.... Send a prayer their way.